WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD!
As I sit here and write with Ruby by my side I cant help but feel complete joy. Joy for those little special moments that we have together. Such moments like the one I just had with her... I looked down at her and she looked back and gave me this HUGE smile and starting talking to me as if we were in a deep conversation. Or joy when I walk in the room and her seeing me the first time this morning and getting really excited and kicking her legs a mile a minute! I love her and I love being a MOM! Ruby is growing so fast and just yesterday I went through her clothes and pulled out her newborn ones(that up until last week still fit her) and had to retire them. Maybe a little tear of sadness ran down my face but also a tear of joy. As much as I was ready for her to grow into new clothes my heart ached for that little newborn... the one that loved to just cuddle with me at all times. Ruby has become more independent, which I am very grateful for, but she is growing too fast! With her new independence, I finally have time to do more around the house and get more work done. It brings me much joy knowing that I can leave her with a few toys and Baby Einstein and go do the dishes or clean out the cupboards and fridge (which sadly have been neglected for months). Also with her new independence she doesnt want to cuddle as often. She wants to be able to see everything that is going on. When she's tired she sometimes wants to be held, but mostly wants to lay on her own! What happened to the little baby who would only sleep when she was being held? Dont get me wrong, I am glad that she is sleeping on her own, but how and when did that happen? Now when she is tired and getting ready to fall asleep she talks and groans to herself while holding her binkie in her mouth and blanket on her face. Brian and I absolutely love it and we get a kick out of it every time! Ruby is a really happy baby and will more than likely smile at anyone and everything. Her smile is very contagious and people get a kick out of her. Like the people she flirts with who are sitting behind us at church or standing behind us in line at the store. She really is a little flirt, when you smile and talk to her she gives you a smile and then starts to hide herself a little then grins and grins afterwards. SO CUTE! :)
Yesterday while Brian was holding her she was talking to him and he would talk back in the same jibberish and she would get a kick out of it and reply back with something. This went on for quite some time and I just sat there and thought to myself what a great life I have. I have an amazing husband who has become a wonderful father. He helps me out and is just awesome. I wont get into anything or details but there has been alot of changes in our lives this year and some were good and some bad. He has had his struggles and when he struggles I struggle. I havent really felt like talking to anyone about most of this because it is personal, but once I talked to him about it all, I felt better, he felt better and we are stronger than ever. I have married a man who cares very much about his family and will do anything to assure that they are happy. I love that about him. In his own personal struggles I have seen him grow into a man of willingness... willing to help and forgive. I have watched him become more Christ like in his ability to forgive and reach out his hand to help bring another up. He has a very strong and solid testimony of the church and I look up to him for it. He is stronger than I am and I am proud of him and envious of his ability to turn a bad situation into something better.
More about Ruby...
Before she was born I had all these ambitions. like keeping up this blog as a journal for her (we all know that hasn't been so), I wanted to take a picture of her everyday in the same spot so we could see how she is growing day by day, pierce her ears, and always put a bow in her hair! Well sadly I havent done any of those things. Pictures I have... lots! I guess I could start a picture a day from here on out, and maybe I will. The blog... well I can only try. Bows! Ha...we have many but the always end up around her eyes or we dont really go anywhere so whats the point? I do put one on if we go out but thats about it. So I guess I sort of do that one. Now piercing her ears?!?! I cant bring myself to do it... how could I intentionally inflict pain on my little baby? I want her to have them so badly but I just cant muster up the courage to do it. I told Brian he needs to take her for me. He said he would, so there is a chance of that actually happening! Anyways, I want to write down little things she does or has done for my memory and not dwell on the things that I havent done. I try and that has to be good enough. I cant look at everyone else's blogs who are doing much more than me with their lives and children and sit and feel bad for not doing or trying to do the same things. I can only be me. I am happy I have a happy and healthy baby and a great husband. Our life will go on as such if we only try to do what is right. That is what we do, we try to become better each day and love each other.
Sorry, got off the subject... Ruby. Ruby loves to look at herself in the mirror or in pictures and holds great conversations and exchanges millions of smile with herself. On our fridge we have lots of pictures of family and friends and I have her look at them daily and she loves it! She really loves TV. When the TV is on it is hard to get her attention, but once you pull her away she is all ears and wants to be soaked up in conversation with you. She kicks and runs like crazy...seriously, I get tired watching her go and go. When she does this she sucks in her bottom lip? Weird but funny. Up until this last week she loved baths... I mean LOVED them, only cried when I took her out. I loved giving her bath time and watching her kick and splash water all over. I dont know what happened but now she doesnt enjoy the water. Breaks my heart giving her baths and her laying there screaming and red all over. I want my water loving baby to come back! She loves music and loves me singing to her. She gets excited when I dance and I think tries to mimic my sporadic moves. Her talking is adorable and I cant get enough of it along with her smiles. Every once in awhile she tries to get a laugh out and it makes me laugh which makes her try even more. She doesnt really like the idea of being on her belly and only last for a short time doing her belly time. She loves books and when I read to her. She finally loves her swing and will sleep in it throughout the day. She loves being outside. When she is fussy we will just step outside and she calms right down. She loves going on walks and you can tell she is trying to take it all it. Her heads turns every direction as she is trying to see the world around her. She loves to grab and hold onto things and she is very strong. She loves to suck on her blanket and hands. She hold her blanket in between her binkie and hand in order to keep her binkie in her mouth. She is kind of a busy body already... she tends to get bored easy and just needs a little change and then she is fine for a bit. She loves when daddy comes through the door she starts cooing and smiling for him instantly. I love watching them together. I am excited to watch her learn and grow more but at the same time I want time to somehow go a little slower.
I truly have a wonderful life. It is no where near perfect and at times gets tough, but I know that with the gospel and Heavenly Father at our focal point,we, my family, can get through anything together.